Being a techie

is hard. I'm the only one in my family of 5 who knows how to decently fix a computer. My sister's computer is the best in the house, with three compys. with 5 gbs of ram and half a terrabyte of hard drive, that's over 500 gigs!, it's a techies dream. Nvidia gt 8600 it kicks all video game butt! with vista there's nothing this thing can't do, but as I've just learned as im typing, my sister's compy won't read any cd i give it. I look into the computer files and I realize there's no cd drive showing up. so that's my problem now. had to tell her to take it into best buy. finished watching All My Sons in english today. I started blubbering like a baby. I'm gonna be converting all of my baby tapes of my birth till the present time to dvd which i get paid for 30 bucks a pop. gotta get to work.

WHY?

Why is it always me? Now the drama's over but I'm sick. ugh. I hate head colds. They suck. I was dreaming about being a castaway on an island like Tom Hanks and my bed was soaked. No, I didn't wet the bed. At least not in that way. I had a blanket over the covers so as to break my fever with heat and I ended up sweating till my bed was wet. My fever broke though. I am reading All My Sons and I'm 60 pages away from finishing The Fellowship of the Ring. I also started a new book called Extreme Measures by Vince Flynn. It's a political thriller and it has to do a lot with terrorists and Al-Queda. That's about it this week. I'm hoping the sniffles will subside.

People

Sometimes I just hate people, y' know? No matter what I do there's always a red flag going up. I've had a lot of drama these past two weeks and I am sick of it. I just can't wait till people will get over themselves and start being smart and not the idiots they are. Ugh. I've been reading a lot though. I am nearly done with the first Lord of the Rings book: The Fellowship of the Ring. AWESOME!! How can you not read it? That and I've just started Blink by Malcolm Gladwell. A similar style to Freakonomics, which is my favorite, Blink talks about that part in our minds that we really can't explain. Our subconsciousness. In Blink a subject of a lot of talk is thin-slicing. Where we can in an instant without having any real physical evidence, or explaining how we know, we can make highly accurate descriptions of people's personalities, whether a tennis player will double fault or whether a kouros is a total fake. Awesome book. Not for those idiots aforementioned. So that's my life these past two weeks. Total Sh*#!! Ah well. What are ya gonna do?

Today...

...is not that great. Been losing my sanity all week. First, I can't open my Laguna electric guitar with the new Line 6 Spider 3 amp till xmas and that just kills me. I'm slowly failing at fitting in with society and i am just so sick and tired of trying. People are telling me to fit in, and not just at school, but no matter how hard i try it just isn't who i am. im tired of putting a mask on just so that people will say, "Hey, he fits. He's cool." I'd rather have them say, "*snort* Dork." My life is just not that great anymore. It's slowly going down the tubes. I don't know. I just feel really down lately. I'm basicially confused. I never thought that when I finially would spill my guts online like this I'd be whining. Heh. ugh. This just has not been a great last two days for me. They've been complete crap. Now I've hit rock bottom. What goes up must come down, so isn't true that what goes down must go up? Or does it go bankrupt like AIG?