Today...

...is not that great. Been losing my sanity all week. First, I can't open my Laguna electric guitar with the new Line 6 Spider 3 amp till xmas and that just kills me. I'm slowly failing at fitting in with society and i am just so sick and tired of trying. People are telling me to fit in, and not just at school, but no matter how hard i try it just isn't who i am. im tired of putting a mask on just so that people will say, "Hey, he fits. He's cool." I'd rather have them say, "*snort* Dork." My life is just not that great anymore. It's slowly going down the tubes. I don't know. I just feel really down lately. I'm basicially confused. I never thought that when I finially would spill my guts online like this I'd be whining. Heh. ugh. This just has not been a great last two days for me. They've been complete crap. Now I've hit rock bottom. What goes up must come down, so isn't true that what goes down must go up? Or does it go bankrupt like AIG?

....ooohhhhh... . . .

Ow. Ow. Ow. ugh. This thanksgiving hurt really badly. I sprained my toe, tried to get up today for Kohl's 4am sale. WTF was I thinking? I mean really? 4AM!! ugh. Stayed up till 1 watching lord of the rings with my father all the while drinking fizzy bubblie! I love fizzie bubblie! its that non alcoholic sparking apple, pear, apple-lingonberry, and all other flavors sparkling juice! AWESOME!! So we downed 3 bottles of that stuff, so now I have a hangover. Not from the bubblie but from watching lotr for about 5 hrs. My head feels like a train wreck. ugh. my gut feels horrible. Why do we even do thanksgiving if it hurts so bad afterwards? we eat until we literally explode and the next morning our stomachs are just messed up. ugh. ugh. ugh. I can't even spell right my head hurts so bad. tylenol just makes it worse. ugh. next time I'm gonna go easy on the pie.

Reading

Well not so much reading as watching in school. Despite the protest of my parents that watching movies in school is a complete waste of time, that they could show me the same movie and teach me the same if not more about that movie than Roehl could (which I doubt) and that watching movies degrades your brain into mush which is oxymoronical to school's purpose. So yeah. We watched "O brother, where art thou?" which is my favorite movie of all time!! My favorite part is when george nelson shoots the cows and then the cows get run over by the cops!^^! BLOOD!! GORE!! RAMPAGE!! Ahem. Anyway, one of the most occuring motifs was sight. Lots of blind people. I keep wondering how many blind people there really were in 1930 but the representation of sight is of vision. The sight was of prophecy and that our eyes decieve us and without our eyes we could see the truth of our destinies.

Reading

Just finished I AM LEGEND!! AWESOME BOOK!! It talks about how that vampires in our world are legends but as he racks up his vampire kills he has become a legend for them. The last line of the book is the three famous chilling words: I am legend. AHHHHH!!! AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!! Very good. I found Richard Matheson's insight on what happens to a man all alone in a world full of people waiting to kill him very interesting. Highly recommend this one.

Wednesday's reading

It's been awhile since I posted last, I've been busy with English and our Odyssey essays. As I was getting quotes for the revenge topic of the essay, it really came clear to me that a lot of what I was trying to get at in my paper was that revenge and violence is not the answer and that more conventional ways of solving one's problems are at hand.

Wednesday's reading

Today I saw the back of a kid's shirt at school that said: "Barack & ROLL!!" I found this very clever but what also hit me was that alot of young voters, even us young people who can't vote, really support Barack Obama and Joe Biden. Some classmates that I know support John McCain for their own reasons and that's fine, but I just really am surprised at how well Obama has hit it with the youth of America. I am starting to realize that what I learned about ancient civilizations is true. When a country is in the dumps a pattern occurs, that is a powerful leader brings that said country back on its feet it has prosperity and I believe that is what is in the foreseeable future. If you really want to know why we young people are really turning out to vote this election it is because we were raised on a lot of rhetoric about the "American Dream" but rarely have we been able to make such and impact, or direct effect on that dream. Whether your white, black, gay, straight, ivy-league educated, disabled, fat, skinny, male, female, asian, latino, it doesn't matter, just as long as you show up and pull that lever. We will vote because we know that even though the president cannot save us from ourselves, he is the symbol for the best in us. What we do, consume, how we treat each other is what identifies us as the USA, the president merely is the figurehead of our chorus of voices, again, the symbol for who we are and who we can be. That's why. Every vote counts. That's my message today. Go Vote!

Green Bay Packers Heroes

As I was researching the many packers heroes, people who made a fame and a name that cannot be slain for the Packers, and among them were the infamous Brett Favre, Vince Lombardi, Reggie White, Curly Lambeau, and Ray Nitschke just to name a few, can be separated into three different columns. They are heroes who play with their hearts not their heads (all the time at least) on the field, players who play with their hearts out in the community, and players who play with their hearts out on the field of the world, metaphorically speaking, changing the lives of people. The people who play with their hearts are all of the above and more like Greg Jennings, Donald Driver, Nick Collins, Ryan Grant, Aaron Rodgers and the one and only Kabeer Gbaja-Biamila, they all play tremendously on the field; they do things that are illogical and they constantly bend the play rules risking the ball and possible points but because they take risks they are rewarded with our love and support. Those are the heroes of our time, the people who risk everything for the love and adoration of other people.